God is completely good.

I'm starting to get disgusted with the dumb, trivial things that monopolize my thoughts. I guess it's good that I'm finally noticing this and not liking it. I've been dealing with jealousy a lot lately, and doubting myself, and worrying about things that don't mean anything. I like to complain about how bad my life is when it's not that bad and so many other people have it way worse than I do. I know that God wants me to trust him and rise above these things that bother me. I get a sermon of the week podcast from ibethel.org. I definitely recommend it. I've also been reading My Utmost For His Highest. I've already been through the entire thing at least once. It always tells me something that puts my perspective back where it should be.

School is going to be tough this semester. I'm definitely being stretched. I know that's good for me, and I know I'd start to hate just sitting around while my brain wasted away. I'm trying to be thankful for where I am and what I'm doing.

Lately I've felt like any day can bring something that changes everything.

Spring 09

I wonder how much longer I'll think of my life in semesters. I started this one on Thursday. I had to work from 8 to 4:30 and then had class 6 to 9. It was a hard day. Nothing ever stays the same. Rachel moved to Texas, I'm now working for someone whose first day was Thursday, and I'm finding that I don't have many people I can depend on around here. I decided to stay for the long weekend. Both of my roommates went home. Jami and I went to a potluck for homeless people Friday night, and that was interesting and fun. Yesterday I spent pretty much the whole day by myself. I had not done this in a very long time. I cleaned my room, finished the Twilight Saga (loved it), and spent a lot of time just thinking. I slept in today. The only thing on the agenda for today is grocery shopping and maybe laundry. This semester will not be easy. This time in my life is not easy. But no one ever told me I would have it easy.

January 2009

I read through my old posts and realized I have some things to update. I finally finished reading the Harry Potter series. I thought it was good, but not something I would have regretted missing if I hadn't read it. I read it because so many of my friends talked about it so much and how good it was. I didn't like it as much as they all seem to. I didn't want to give in, but I did, and now I'm reading Twilight. I am enjoying it more than I should. I have a lot of trouble making myself put it down. It's way more my thing than Harry Potter is.

It's getting to the part of the break where I get sad, because I have nothing to do but sit at home (and read Twilight). I'm ready to get back to Murfreesboro and start work and classes again so I won't have so much time to sit around and feel sorry for myself.

I got this for Christmas:
The other night I made ratatouille and apple crumble. It was really fun. The most exciting thing about this present is that it was a surprise. It was wrapped and under the tree when I mentioned to my mom and sister that I wanted it. I had no idea they had gotten it for me already. I also bought a Wii yesterday with my Christmas money. I had to track one with itrackr.com because I couldn't find them anywhere, but I finally did.