The conversation that happened as a result of my dad answering my mom's cell phone:

Dad: "Hey."

Me: "Hey, where's mom?"

Dad: "She's in the shower."

Me: "Oh, I just wanted to talk to her."

Dad: "I don't want to get the phone wet."

Me: "I can wait until she gets out of the shower."

Dad: "I'll tell her. Bye."

Me: "Bye."

I'm reading Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell for a class. It is really interesting so far. It makes me see success differently.

Today is my day to work on the things I've been putting off. I'm not excited about it. My brain always goes off in several different directions, because I have so many things that I want or need to do. It's hard to just focus on one thing and get it done.

I'm excited about every weekend of this month. This coming weekend I'm doing fun things (miller's, movie, pumpkin patch, corn maze) with Katie, Barbara, and Shelly. The weekend after that is my fall break. I'm definitely looking forward to some extra days of rest. The next weekend is Bethel's homecoming. I want to see the choir and all the people I miss. Finally, the next weekend after that is Halloween. We are planning on having a party at the apartment. We'll see how that goes.

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I applied for a job yesterday. I got so stressed out and nervous just applying. It's really freaking me out. It would be so nice to have a real job and not have to worry so much about my finances. I'm praying that I get the right job and meet the right people. I want to learn and grow and use what I've already learned. I want to work with people who inspire and motivate me.

Woohoo!

Tomorrow is payday, and it's really pretty outside. I got some awesome groceries at Kroger, but the organic section sure is pricey. This semester is going by too fast, and I'm afraid of what's on the other side. Oh well. At least I won't have to go to classes anymore. I really have so much to do that it's overwhelming, so I don't do anything. I'm about to work out, take a shower, and maybe read a book outside. :)

The break is over.

I don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

I think I'm getting ready for the hardest time of my life. I think it starts Monday. 

I'm finishing my three week break from school. It wasn't too bad. I got a little better at piano, had a fun weekend with my sister in Murfreesboro, got a mac and a new ipod, visited two of my best friends in Memphis, and spent the rest of the time doing nothing.

Now it's time to start my last semester of college and graduate with a Masters degree. Never thought that would happen. I'm 23 now. I think this is my year. I think it will be really difficult and really great all at the same time. I'm excited about Katie coming to Nashville. Fun times HAVE to be had with Katie so close by. 

True Blood is my new favorite show, and Eric is Meekus! That's like... the greatest thing ever!

I'm a sucker for Canadian teen dramas.

I really like The Best Years. I've been watching it online all weekend. Watching The Best Years makes me kind of miss living in the dorms at Bethel. Things were much simpler then.

I've also been playing on the Wii Fit a lot lately. I finally unlocked all the yoga poses.

I'm getting ready for life to get crazy on me again, because I have to move into a different living situation soon. I also graduate in December. Which means I'll have to find a real job and grow up for real. Scary!

spring break 09

This is spring break: sitting in my room either reading, thinking, or twittering. It isn't bad. I'm kind of enjoying the break. It's the first time I haven't spent it on a charter bus. I watched Australia last night with my parents. It was looong, but I enjoyed it for the most part. I saw Watchmen today with Mary and her bf. It was looooong, but it is a really good movie.

My mom had her surgery and got a good report from the doctor. No more cancer.

I'm still learning new things about life all the time. Every second is another decision, and I hate making decisions. I've been studying the enneagram more. I'm definitely a nine.

I'm pretty sure I'll graduate this December. Kinda scary. Life goes on.

Things

It's crazy how sometimes things hit me out of nowhere and make me feel sad. It takes a few minutes for me to recover and change my thoughts to make myself feel better. I start to want to protect myself more and hide away from all the things that I don't like.

In other news, I'm reading this:


I feel pretty alone in this area of my life.

I've also been catching up on Lost Episodes. I'm on season 3. That's the extent of new things in my life.

V-Day 09

Valentine's Day is not my enemy. My plans for the day were to work on homework, watch a movie by myself while eating chocolate, and not get too depressed.

I thought since basically everyone I know is in a relationship, that the last plan on the list would be hard to avoid, but it wasn't. Chad (my roommate) and I went to La Siesta. Yummy food and a margarita made me feel pretty good. We came back and played scrabble and watched some Lost. I got some love from my friends and gave some love, too. So what if it's just through text messages. That's how love is transmitted these days.

So the last thing on my list ended up being the only thing I accomplished. I tried to encourage a friend who was feeling down, did some yoga that made me feel good, and spent some quality time with my roomie. So Valentine's Day was just another Saturday for me. If it was more than that for you, then I hope you had a great time.

God is completely good.

I'm starting to get disgusted with the dumb, trivial things that monopolize my thoughts. I guess it's good that I'm finally noticing this and not liking it. I've been dealing with jealousy a lot lately, and doubting myself, and worrying about things that don't mean anything. I like to complain about how bad my life is when it's not that bad and so many other people have it way worse than I do. I know that God wants me to trust him and rise above these things that bother me. I get a sermon of the week podcast from ibethel.org. I definitely recommend it. I've also been reading My Utmost For His Highest. I've already been through the entire thing at least once. It always tells me something that puts my perspective back where it should be.

School is going to be tough this semester. I'm definitely being stretched. I know that's good for me, and I know I'd start to hate just sitting around while my brain wasted away. I'm trying to be thankful for where I am and what I'm doing.

Lately I've felt like any day can bring something that changes everything.

Spring 09

I wonder how much longer I'll think of my life in semesters. I started this one on Thursday. I had to work from 8 to 4:30 and then had class 6 to 9. It was a hard day. Nothing ever stays the same. Rachel moved to Texas, I'm now working for someone whose first day was Thursday, and I'm finding that I don't have many people I can depend on around here. I decided to stay for the long weekend. Both of my roommates went home. Jami and I went to a potluck for homeless people Friday night, and that was interesting and fun. Yesterday I spent pretty much the whole day by myself. I had not done this in a very long time. I cleaned my room, finished the Twilight Saga (loved it), and spent a lot of time just thinking. I slept in today. The only thing on the agenda for today is grocery shopping and maybe laundry. This semester will not be easy. This time in my life is not easy. But no one ever told me I would have it easy.

January 2009

I read through my old posts and realized I have some things to update. I finally finished reading the Harry Potter series. I thought it was good, but not something I would have regretted missing if I hadn't read it. I read it because so many of my friends talked about it so much and how good it was. I didn't like it as much as they all seem to. I didn't want to give in, but I did, and now I'm reading Twilight. I am enjoying it more than I should. I have a lot of trouble making myself put it down. It's way more my thing than Harry Potter is.

It's getting to the part of the break where I get sad, because I have nothing to do but sit at home (and read Twilight). I'm ready to get back to Murfreesboro and start work and classes again so I won't have so much time to sit around and feel sorry for myself.

I got this for Christmas:
The other night I made ratatouille and apple crumble. It was really fun. The most exciting thing about this present is that it was a surprise. It was wrapped and under the tree when I mentioned to my mom and sister that I wanted it. I had no idea they had gotten it for me already. I also bought a Wii yesterday with my Christmas money. I had to track one with itrackr.com because I couldn't find them anywhere, but I finally did.